So I'm going to share what I've been thinking about all day. The future. My plans and hopes for the future.
I'll start with family and friends. I think my biggest hope for the coming year is to make more time for family and friends. Although it's hard when I think of how busy we are with Nugget. But, with every challenge there is a solution. I also hope to work on myself as it relates to family and friends. Try not to be as quick to judge and put up shields. I had a reason and I had circumstances that brought me to this point. Mainly it was a form of preventing hurt and protecting myself. This has resulted in people not know who I am. They know who I want them to know. The parts of me I want to people to know. It's not about lying, it's about keeping my shields up. Aside from that I hope to be able to build loving, supportive, and compassionate relationships that I've avoided up to now.
I've also thought a lot today about things I like to do. Photography. Mead making. Cooking. Reading. Knitting. How do I work these things into my life while not taking away from anything else. For instance, how do I make it out to the Photography club meeting without taking about from Nugget's bedtime (which I've missed twice since he has been born). This is when I have to ask myself, "is it really going to hurt Nuggy to miss 1, 2, even 3 bedtimes in a month"? Really? As much as it pains me to say...it's not going to hurt him. It may hurt me, but not him. And to knit, brew up some mead or cook doesn't take time away from Nuggy especially when he is playing within eyesight. Now that he plays a lot more one his own.
I've also been thinking a lot about money today. Who wants to think about these things on the first day of the year? Nobody, but I did. Without going too much into is personal subject, my hope is to have a sizable savings by this time next year.
Okay enough with this retrospective introspective gobblely gook and on to the fun of 2010. Making plans for 2 vacations this year. 1 for sure, 2nd is a possibility. Really looking forward to these. Also looking forward to finishing my family cookbook. Also excited about Nuggy's first birthday and all that this year has to bring as it relates to him.
And one final note. I look forward to sharing the year to come here. I hope we can start conversations. I hope we can get to know each other through this meeting place.
|my future's so bright...|